Hair Troubles

I have been blonde for nearly a year now, and up until a point it was all great! All the fun happened!

Gradually, in my eagerness to go lighter and lighter to eventually a colour I could make cotton candy pink, I over dyed my hair and lost a massive patch at the back of my head.

Not completely to the scalp but there are parts of my hair that are about 1/4 the length of the rest! It was quite traumatising at the time but after a brief moment outside a hairdressers in two minds whether to cut it all off or not and try an asexual cut, my sister convinced me to wait.

It has been a few months of solid moisturising, no shampoo, leave in conditioner, evening soaks in coconut oil, wearing wigs and soaking my hair in

the oil during the day under the wig, basically a lot more thought and care than I am used to or happy with. I used to literally get up, wash and leave, no effort, it was great.

I am going to get my hair crocheted by my sister in an attempt to do what she tells me is 'protective styling' where my hair is given time to just grow without interference. 

Sunnies in there for scale

I still love the blonde so today I bought a ton of blonde hair, various types of braiding hair, for this, but first I have to do my roots again... for the first time since... 'the incident'.

I want to do this but ... I'm scared.

The Chop

Every time I make the decision to grow my hair I get the urge to cut it a few months later and the cycle continues leaving me with a short do. At the moment its longer than it has been in years, but I am starting to get bored with it already. I want to dye it (something like baby pink, or bright blue), I want to cut it short, I just want to play with it, but I know that as soon as I do that I throw away my chance of having long hair again.

At a photo-shoot they gave n this upstyle that looks like a short do, which was an interesting change. They used a lot of pins and just pulled it all up so the ends from the back of my hair were actually on the top of my head. My normal hair is shown next to it so you can see the length they were working with. Maybe a cut like this would be fun. I am just going to wait till my wigs get here from Korea because then even if I cut my hair I can have the best of both worlds... right.....?? I was looking at hair tints too, I don't know anyone who has used them but this one seems like fun and it has mostly good reviews.

In the winter my wig is the best because its warm and having long hair I think adds some femininity to chunky winter layers. I dunno. I don't think that many people wear them so it is a little strange, but I don't care, I see it as an accessory and its not pulling chunks out of my hair like my extensions did. Another reason why I wear the wig sometimes. If you are running late, but you still have to deal with hair, putting on a wig is like having a ready made hairstyle! This one is synthetic, but you can use flat irons on it on a low setting.

My sister recently took the leap and cut her hair into a short bob, shaved pretty high at the back, in her first step towards going all natural. I applaud her for wanting to do that, I can't be arsed with an afro at the moment. Just trying to comb through the roots that are growing through is infuriating and I have all but given up till I go for a straightening or Brazilian Blow Dry.

I feel like there is this pressure for me to go natural, like people think I am trying to be something I am not when I straighten my hair.. I just think its less hassle, and if its straight I can add curls easily, but if its curly its really hard to get it straight properly. Meh, each to their own, if I had the patience to grow out a beautiful afro that would be nice, but knowing me it would never get that long because I don't think I would do half of the treatments I am supposed to do. I am going to watch my sisters progress and see what's up..